Sunday, August 25, 2013

Zindagi Ka Hisaab




Zindagi ka apna alag hi andaz hai...jiski nazar ka zaviya hisaab kitaab per tika hota hai uski muthi uska asmaan hota hai...yehan tou saara hisaab hi ghalath hogaya tha...jisne door-ras nigah na paai usey kub ye zindgi raas aai...bas zindgi bade aram say munkir hogaii..usne ek hasrath bhi dhalne na di...usne zindgi ki ek na chalne di...Aakhir aqal ke andhon ki binaii, mohabbat kahan ban paai..log tou mohabbat ki duhaii per hanste hain...unhen is lafz ka yaqeen jo nahi hai...."sehraii  tou labrez pyaale ko bhi saraab samajhte hain"...bilkul yehi maamla hogaya tha...kisi ko mohabbaton per yaqeen nahi aaya...sab ne isey bhi broadway ka ek play hi samjha....halaanke un do ankhon ki takraar barabar jaari thi ke arey logo kum say kum ekbaar hi sahi mujhe sun lo...umhm...nahi suni kisi ne...sab ke paas apni hi faryaad thi...aur uske paas ab faqat apne kuchle huye palon ki yaad thi....

Aakhir doodh ka jala chanch say bhi jul gaya...phoonk phoonk ker peene ki naubat tak na aai...zindagi ki raftaar ne usey ghataghat pi liya....usne un julte angaron say apni aag bujhaii...sach....log tapish say ghabra kar paaniyon ka sahara lete hain..aur yehan tou paani ne hi aag laga di...sukhe khet khaliyan choon-o-charaan kiye baghair hi jul gaye...vo lub jo kabhi khul hi na sake bas chup chaap sil gaye...ab kehne may rakha hi kya hai...jub ke yaqeen ki khidki band padi hai...

Jaane kyon log sangdil hote jaarahe hain...sangdili tou baad ki baat hai...behissi ki chadar odhe daman bachate phirte hain...aakhir unka kya lejaati zindgi...gar do phool koi khila deta....koi meetha raag suna deta..koi ummid bhara ek khwab dikha deta....baat arzoo ki nahi hai...jeene ki wajah ki hai....jiske paas jub kuch nahi hota unhen ek ummid ka sahara hi tou hota hai...ke kahin ye aane waala kal vo khushi lekar miljaaye jiski tamanna may hirni si badi badi ankhen angoori hogayeen...kahin dil-e-nashaad ki shaadmani ka koi sabab miljaaye jiski chah may vo khila khila mosam khizan-raseeda hogaya ...bas chahat khushi ki ummid hai...hasrath ki takmil hai...haan ab dene waala maangne waale ko azmaate waqt zarur ye soch le, ek tarsa hua dil apne samne apni pasandeeda shaye pakar muh kaise pher le...her koi " zahid "tou nahi hota..jise apne nafs ko raam karna aajaata...

"Nafs" khushion ki tamanna ka gunahgar nahi hosakta....be-qabu khahishon ki  dore tou haakim ke hath hoti hai.nafs ki kya majaal jo belagaam hojaaye...haan khwab-o-khayal zarur sarkash hosakte hain...unhen bhi baar baar ki inkaar say zad-o-kob karke behaal karliya jaata hai...ab baaqi kya bacha...faqat ek machini nizam, jisey jo jaisa chahe chala leta hai...phir ekdin haakim is khaul ko apne paas bula leta hai...